You is who you always are, whatever aspects added or removed.

However weak you are, accept it. Whatever shortcomings you feel you've got, acknowledge them. You are one, and your weaknesses are things that you can work on, you are still you, you still ARE, no matter how weak or strong you are. No matter how sociable or smart you may or may not be. There is a you, and then there are all these things you can choose to work on, put your attention to. You may want to become better at playing the piano. However good you play it, or however bad, what stays the same? You. A you that is always changing. For better or for worse. ALL the things you can think of, are loose. Nothings definite. Every thing you could think of that you can like or dislike, none of these say anything about what you are. You are the one that can like or dislike, that can learn to play the piano, that can practice on becoming a social genius. The one who can do anything or nothing of those things. The base, the root of any liking or disliking. You think you get this? Dig deeper.

Originally written on 11.02.12 14:26

Its' started to hurt so much that I Have to let go of everything, that I Have to forget about everything, everything that is, how I have seen it, and even am seeing it. Just forget about it, forget about everything, and theres only one lead to trace, leading to me, the single only one me, without any attachments, without any boundaries in another sense. Leading out to the world, without fear, only courage, When I think, "but how will that be possible?", then the back push comes, "there is no staying either.", here is nothing of me, no pulse. It's used, if there ever even was anything to be used, or found, or learned here, it's no more. There is no way back, only forward, I no longer even choose to take that way amongst other, there is only that way. and everything is silent, and filled with a force of the beat of the earth, the rhytm to which I can dance, if I want to. I can sit in it, and its there, I can do anything in it, the beat … is there.
Alive, communicating, in emotion. true emotion. it is all that is.

Written in a notebook, excuse the grammar.

Note

You'll be able to smile out at the world, because you are not the world. You are someone else.

Oliver Koletzki feat Fran Arrow Bow Marek Hemmann Remix

Music wasted is life wasted

Think of it as a song, everyday life is the drums and the base, it can sound ok, feel ok, but it is monotonous, hard and colorless. It’s what everyone hears. You, are the refrain, telling a story, moving, dancing, smiling, crying. Deep, rough, beautiful, painful… add nuances, add feeling, add the journey. You, alone in the song, creating history.

You are the main character of your own life.

There is no coming, no going. There is only this. How could there be any coming or going when you’re right here. Dig deeper.

You are not Barcelona.

A History of Architecture class in school got me reasoning, who built all these things that still are, or have been destroyed? -Humans. Yes. What are humans then? -A species. Ok. Humans have been building and destroying, decade after decade. Humans have died and other humans have been born, but can you see the constant? Something that has always been there, in the chain of one human dying and another one being born, what is it? (Hint: it’s not the earth. ;-))

Existence, life? What is so special about that you may ask? It is something that just is, you didn’t ask for it, you’re alive, until you die, so what. Where’s that magic in that?

The magic is that existence is empty, no matter if the house is built or destroyed, it doesn’t touch your existence. You may care about the house or you may not, it does not touch your existence. It’s freedom. Once you know that everything that happens is without meaning, you can act if it makes you feel good, and choose to turn the other way if it doesn't.

Side note; -No obligations. Be careful, some people will try to pull you down. I promise. They’re jealous and want to take you down to their state of feeling. Just remember, you have no obligations in this world. Responsibility for yourself yes, but no obligations. As an example, if someone is talking about something that you don’t feel good about, you can just turn your head in the middle of their sentence and walk away. You do not have to explain yourself to anyone. Almost like a child. You have only yourself to answer to and you have no idea how good it will feel. Freedom. This applies to ANY person in your life. ANY.
Soon this “crazy” behavior will change your life in the most unexpected way. The people will change. Try, for about 3 months, and you will see for yourself. AHA! A technique, for all you technique junkies out there. But no. It’s just about growing up. Growing up more than all the grown-ups out there. (I’m not talking about avoiding conflict with a close one, meet the conflict, with your truth, your close one deserves it.)

In here you’re empty. Vast emptiness. That you can choose to fill with whatever you like, songs, dancing, taking a swim alone in the summer night. The things that are beautiful to do while you’re here on earth.

But keep all your thoughts. They do not keep you from entering this state of mind. Thoughts are your friends, they are coming from you, it’s ok. Who is thinking?

Your friend is Barcelona, you know this city, you know what special features/moods make this city Barcelona, you know what makes your friend who she is, you know her. You, are not Barcelona. You are another city. What is it? And what makes your city distinct? Not the differences between you and Barcelona. But the difference between you and every other city on earth. The you, that would be even if there wouldn’t be any cities to compare to. What makes you, you? If you don’t know, then it’s time to forget about everyone else you know, friends, family, romance… FORGET about EVERYTHING, FORGET EVEN ABOUT YOURSELF. 

Forget about what others know or what you know. It’s not true, nothing is, have never been and will never be. There is nothing carved in stone about anything. If you have a disease, WHATEVER it is, this does not touch your existence. Until you die you exist. And maybe even after that but why the * care about that right now? Care about this life. You. Here. No coming, no going. No out or into yourself, no past no future… come-on, how can you not see this? You. There can be walking, but you, is always here. There can be sleeping, but you, is always here. The free you is always here. The electric peace. Can you sense it. You.

After you get it, you can cultivate it, and this will be the start of your life.

One very simple question; –what is your body keeping alive? Is there more to you than you currently know?